drunkness

So I'm completely embrassed for my actions last night. I went out and got utterly completely skunky drunk. I did not realize how intoxicated I was until I could not remember anything from the previous night. I had 3 shots and two drinks, I was so so so drunk. My friends had to spend their night out taking care of me, I felt so bad. It comes to the point now when I go out I cannot have fun unless I drink, its so pitiful. I do not understand or how I even became to be this way. I never used to drink..like ever. I really wish I never would have started. I was plouched up on the chair like a damn floosey. Anyway. No more "over" drinking.