Black and Gold.

If the fish swam out of the ocean
and grew legs and they started walking
and the apes climbed down from the trees
and grew tall and they started talking

and the stars fell out of the sky
and my tears rolled into the ocean
now i'm looking for a reason why
you even set my world into motion

'cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold
black and gold
black and gold

i looked up into the night sky
and see a thousand eyes staring back
and all around these golden beacons
i see nothing but black

i feel a way of something beyond them
i don't see what i can feel
if vision is the only validation
then most of my life isn't real

'cause if you're not really here
then the stars don't even matter
now i'm filled to the top with fear
but it's all just a bunch of matter
'cause if you're not really here
then i don't want to be either
i wanna be next to you
black and gold
black and gold
black and gold

I'm Broke

I'm so broke, send me money! ahhhh

School

I hope I don't fail. lol

lame ass fools

One of my biggest pest peeves is when people lie for no absolute reason..like..what's the point? An example: I met lil wayne at a concert and he asked me for my phone number. Wtf? Its so ridiclious and stupid. I person who is currently employed where I am lied about the dumbest thing in the freaking world. Basically, he wanted to talk to one of my coworkers...which was cool, but when questioned by his former suitors, foolishy he denied. Dumb mistake DICKHEAD. What was the point of lying? He an I no longer talk and I am not remotely interested in him at all but he continued to adamantly denied we never talked. Fyi idiot: don't lie to someone who didn't give a shit about you anyway.

R.I.P Lip ring

So yesterday I went an got a lip ring, I was totally estastic only to be lately persuaded by JUSTIN! that is was probaly one of the dumbest thing I ever did. He kept talking about how I wouldn't like it later on down the line..and that's like a hole in your face...appearance, and infection..blah blah. He makes a good point but I should have kept it in for ME. No one else. One thing I can say about myself is that I am a defintly a risk taker, sometimes I do act on impluse without thinking. I wanted it so bad, and I'm still thinking about it right now. As soon as I got home I took it out. 15 bucks down the drain..glad it wasn't 30! I think i'm going to go back next week when I get paid and get it done again, though I really really want it. Heck I might go back today

Moving On

It is so sad when you finally realize someone is over you. Over this pass weekend I made a shocking discover, which led me to acutal realization. It's so f'd up when you spend so much time and effort into a person and you actual believe that one magical day they will come to their senses and wake up to float to you. Unfortunately, that's only in movies and dreams. I honestly that I was ready to move on, but since I'm writing this entry I am clearly not. What makes a person lust after another? personality? looks? or just the overall joy of their company? It's been about two years since we have been apart, but I get a little weirded out when I actually see this person has moved on. I don't know what to do, it's so hard. I wish that I seriously never met him, and I would not have to feel like this. I'm torn because I should not even care about what he's doing or who's he doing it with. I just cannot believe after that time we spent together, he's honestly over me, and with someone else. I'm to old to act like this, but I wish I could make things go my way.