VI: Grand-P

Have you ever been around old people that love to argue? my grandfather is like that. He constantly tells me, "Ronisha did you pay for that"? "Ronisha that's wrong!" "Well fuck it then Ronisha!" It's something about my grandfather that completely annoys me, but makes me laugh at the same time. I know you may be wondering, why is she writing a blog about her grandpa? But I find my grandpa to be one the most interesting creatures on the planet. He's hilarious, just like the grandpa's who curse and scream on tv and still gradually comment about stuff that he is NOT supposed to talk about.He still points the middle finger at people and thinks all young black who wear sagging jeans are "young punks." At his retirement party he publicly called my grandmother Fat and everyone laughed. He once told one of my uncles that his room looked like a "fucking dungeon." and he was "Funky ass gorilla." And when he get's mad he always says, "That pissed me off so bad I could just shit." lol go figure.His jokes always involve cursing which always makes things funny right?! The funniest thing he has ever said is when he told my mom she talked so much she'd probably talk to a dead corpse. And what was even more funnier is that she said she sure would if it would talk back. lol.

V. Cruel Intentions

"Enclosed is my most prized possession. My journal.

For a long time I considered it my trophy. A sordid collection of my conquests.

If you really want to know the truth than please read it. No more lies."

---My Favorite Movie.

IV. Your Best Isn't Good Enough

Have you ever done something over and over and over again but it's still not worth anything. It discourages me when you honestly put 100% into something and it always comes out in failure. The time and commitment you put into your goal is simply futile. Hard work and persistance can only be acheived through dedication as we all know. But what when that still fails? How can you stay focused? Giving up in much more easier, but before I do that, I'll try that 110% over 100.

III.Exploitation

"We take pride in our worldy riches no matter what the cost of obtaining them was. Whether it be selling drugs, disrespcting and exploitating our women or doing the same thing to ourselves."
-----Blogger named "Najee"
Many people complain about black society; drugs, sex, violence, and all other vices that seem to infet our communities. My problem is how all of this ties into ignorance. Throughout my life I've always loved the fact that black people are different. When I see a black person going off on someone sometimes think, " That's a black person, and laugh to myself. Other times when I see a black person on the news for killing someone, I think, "That's a damn black person". And I must admit, some of those qualities that other people call "lude" I appreciate sometimes. The crazy dances, the weird fashion, the crazy hairstyles, and even the ridiclious lingo. Some of it may be extreme, but one must admit that is had become apart of our culture. But the one thing that I cannot stand though is exploitation. Exploitation of black women, black men, black children, and general black life. What saddens me most is the allowance among the black people of such exploitation. Why everytime I turn on the T.V. some black woman has her ass sticking out hanging off some fool with chains and money. Why when I look in a magazine I see some black man surrounded by women in binkins leaning on a expensive car with a cigar in his mouth? Though I am a fan of some "lude" music the representation of black lifestyle is utterly ridiclious. Why can't a black women be fine with a sweater and jeans? Why do the same black men who grew up around black women their whole lives, dated black women their whole lives succumb to a white woman with long blonde hair as soon as they obtain a little cash? Is it some type of predisposed notation from the slavery days that has been embedded into a black man's head that he must have the very thing that claimed the lives of so many black men? Don't get me wrong, I know there is plently black women and men who are educated are not only upstanding indivuduals of society, but are general seen for there character at not their skin. But plently is not enough for me. It seems as if all black people are known for is sports and entertainment. What about docotors? what about entenpaurship? Why can't a woman use her intellience to make money instead her body? why can't black men manufacture drugs instead of selling them? I'm still waiting for the day when us as a black people can come together and realize our potential. As I have said before and I will say again, I will work at Mcdonalds and make my way to the top, before I succumb to the sterotypical exploitation that riddens our black people. And to black women, modeling is a profession. I believe it is a honest profession, but when you turn this profession into assed out portflios and pornography I no longer have respect for you. There was indeed once a time when all a black woman was good for was cleaning a white man's house, washing a white man's dishes, and taking care of a white man's child. Today it seems as if nothing has changed. WE are still treated as second class citizens and not only by other people, but our OWN people. So many oppourtinues have arisen for you to suceed in anything you want to. Why would you settle for exploitation when you can have appreciation? in the words of spike lee,




WakeUP!!!!

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II. You will respect her.

I must admit when I was a junior in high school I absolutely Hated Beyonce. I felt also though the other members of Destiny's Child never got a chance to really showcase their talent because she was constantly in the front. Today my opinion about her has changed a lot. As I got older I realized that seemed as if she was a really confident woman, especially when it came to her music. While watching her performances analyzing her body language as well as her whole demeanor she was flawless. She has a quality that none of the other members of destiny child have, and that's drive. I've never seen a woman work so hard and constantly makes sure her face is seen. At first I though she was just full of herself, but then I realized I can't knock her cause she's getting paid. The whole point of this blog was to address the situation of people (especially black people) who riducle her and post ignorant comments about her over the internet. You do know there was a time when all black women were good for was taking care of someone" else's children and cleaning "someone" else's house. Now she has that same "people" snapping her shoes and running down to the mini mart to get her a bag of skittles. I'm so fucking proud and estatic that this woman is making so much money, and there's not a DAMN thing anybody can do about it. (No I am not taking up for her, and NO I do not know her) but I am standing up for BLACK women. Though you may have never liked a Beyonce song or movie, you do need to respect the fact of what she is doing. She has accomplished so much, and being a black woman at that. The cover of Sports illustrated, Mastercard endorsement, Armani Perfume deals, This girl has done it all! And what really makes me proud that she's black is that she has all type of people steady making her rich. You have whites, asians, hispanics, native americans, Germans, Dutch, shit everybody!and those same people who hate on her for whatever reason, are the same ones downloading her songs off the internt. You cannot deny that this girl is getting hers, and did I mention she's Black?!

I: When You Miss Someone...

It's so hard to admit that you miss someone,especially when that person is no good for you. No matter how many times you've tried to make it work, everytime it fails you realize that you two or not meant for each other. All my life any realationships I "thought" I was in, always ended in disappointment. When you miss someone you realize how much you change once that person is gone. Today I stay to myself, I don't like meeting new guys and I keep my guard up because I don't want someone to get over on me again. Relationships are a complete waste of time, I will never again put myself in a position where my significant other will screw me over. However, I would be lying if I said that I didn't miss him. When you spend years of your life seeing the same person everyday your brain splits into two halves. One wants to spend every waking moment with that person, and the other half wants them to disappear. In the future, I wish this person and I could work things out though, It's so hard to move on without closure. If only this were a perfect world.

GTA-IV...A sad day for me : (

I'm so hurt and upset that I don't have a PS3 or a an Xbox. ( but I know someone who does hehehehe) anyway, I had a old Ps2 a until a person I shall remain nameless stole everything. I remember for GTA San Andreas I had almost beaten the f'n game and then I let the "nameless" person use and he sold my shit! I have a psp now with all the GTA's but I know they are defintley not going to release it on psp, and if they ever do it will be years from now. This sucks so bad, I cannot believe I won't be playing this f'n game. Curse you cruel and wretched world...Curse you!

My Brother and Me! Remember?!

These Are All Before And After Pictures of The Cast of My Brother and Me!





Ever so often you remember those shows that use to make you laugh as a kid. You know the ones you rush home after school to see? One of those shows for me was My Brother and Me. I use to watch every re-run that would come out, I was nuts! Anyway a year ago I did a search for Dee Dee and Alfie because they were so cute. I found out the Dee Dee (Ralph) attended Morehouse is a member of A Phi A fraternity and plays baseball, he was attempting/already in Havard. Alfie however was a huge disappointment. He's some rapper now in La. He looks like a fake thug and like he's wasting his life. you can see his myspace here. http://www.myspace.com/showbizness
Goo, looks pretty good, he looks like a typical joe, the other characters info can be seen on this website. http://community.livejournal.com/howtheylooknow/365381.html
I loved this show so much, I think everyone's favorite eposide was when Dee-Dee said Hit Me! Hit Me! lol. I miss those days..at least some of them.

Here's The Hit Me Eposide!

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I had a freaking video to post from the picnic, but it won't come up. Why>!

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What would you do?

So I was bored at home tonight because I didn't go to the Texas Relays when I start to watch this 20/20 special on ABC. It featured a shocking case of a black father who shot and killed a young white teenager in long island. What stood about the whole story was the reporter who was talking to the accused, (John White). I always assumed that when reporters are two opposing parties, they answer questions in a neutral way, to me it seemed as if she was skeptical about John White when she was talking to him. Anyway, the whole story began when John White's son, Aaron White, was accused of sending sexual explict emails to a local female teenager, (which he wasn't.) I assumed the young man that was killed was friends with this young woman and decided that he would look into the whole situation. Months past and Aaron assumed that everything was cool, but he soon faced reality when he attended a party at the young woman's house. Of course he was asked to leave and he said he did so. He then received a phone call while he was on the way to his house from Danny, (the deceased) who said quote "Come back to the party you fucking nigger." Aaron shook it off and drove home but later on that night 3 young men showed up at his house. John White, (Aaron's Father) was awakened by his frightened son saying "Dad, wake up! They've come to kill me!" John awoke and grabbed his 9mm pistol and headed towards the commontion. John stated that the men were surrounded him screaming racial slurs, and the only way he felt to get out of the situation was to scare the kids. He then stated Danny grabbed the gun out of his hands and it went off. Contrary to whatever happened, these young men should have NEVER came to John White's home. Then young mad did die and that's when this captivating case exploded. When talking to the young men who were with Danny that night, they say that the did not come to John White's house to start trouble, they just wanted to talk. They also claimed they did not scream racial slurs but could clearly be heard on a 911 phone call after the shooting calling John White a "Fucking Nigger." Since then John White has had numerous supporters who feel he had a legal right to defend his family and himself. The judge sentenced him to 2-4 yrs in prison because he had no priors. He atteneded church regulary and was an upstanding citizen in the community. What I am upset about is the fact that this man was even convicted at all. It is very unforunante anytime sometime dies in such a violent way, but I am an avid believer that one must protect themself when faced agasint danger. John White as a man, not just a black man, but a MAN, did what he had to do. These kids should have never approached his home and even stepped foot on their property. I firmly believe that if this situation was flipped the other way, I would not even be discussing this case now. No one can know what it is like to be black until you are black. Contrary to Affirmative Action, Equality, Peace and Freedom, blacks are treated like second class citizens in every part of the so-called great nation. It disgusts me that people ignore the fact that it exists and are so naive that they believe it will just go away with time. To all the John White's of the world, white or black I commended youn and I understand. Racism is defintley still alive, and without recongition, it will never go away.

You Can see some of the video below.