The past expects the future.

Wow it's been a long time since I blogged. I think I only actually use it when I have something to say, and right now I do. This year has turned out to be crap. Everything that could have went wrong in my life did. Is it wrong for me to want to enjoy life and ignore the bullshit? I've had horrible relationships and fake friends but in the end it all comes to the light. Then sometimes I sit back and wonder....why does all this even matter? what's the purpose of life..Why am I here?